梦

梦，始终是梦。

梦里一切的美好始终会在你睁开眼睛的那一刹那完全消失。

人，为什么会做梦？人，为什么会希望美梦持续下去，不要醒来。

这全都因为人无法在现实生活中找到那一切的美好。就希望能在梦里找到所渴望的一切。

美梦真的能让一个人觉得快乐， 让人很享受。但，梦终就是梦。人总有一天要醒来。从美梦中醒来，回到现实生活的滋味真的很不好受。那种心情就像是一位很亲的知己突然间消失在你眼前。这都因为梦里一切的美好往往都与现实相反。

那一切的美好，已是第二次出现在我的梦境中。虽然两次的对象都不一样，但感觉是一样的。

第一次的美梦早已破碎。那种低落的心情当然有过。但，那已是过去。

我已做好心理准备面对第二次美梦的破碎。因为，过去的经验告诉我，梦与现实真的是相反的。

既然梦与现实是相反的，那就让我们一起做噩梦吧。可怕的梦或许是美好现实的前兆。哈哈。

虽然如此，人还是得有梦。有梦就有目标。人生才会过得有意义。或许美梦真的是可以被实现。只不过我们不知如何采取行动来实现它。

或许是我个人的问题吧。我始终在原地踏步，没勇气踏出“实现美梦”的那一步。我的心告诉我应该勇敢地踏出那一步但我的脑袋告诉我要理智。

到目前为止，我仍坚信着我要理智。不该相信你所说的一切因为那一切的一切都不可能是真的。

我想那些玩笑将在你找到你的她时而停止。就让那些玩笑继续开下去吧。反正你应该会在不久的将来找到你的她。

别问我关于以上文章的任何问题。

读过就算了。

看懂就懂。看不懂就算了 :)

好了，说了我想说的了。是时候回到现实，做我该做的事。

can i?!

wish to be friend with "decadent" for a day.. can i?!

just wish to ignore all the tasks..

just wish to take a break before uni life gets tougher..

just wish to stop the stress from increasing..

just wish.. .. ..

just for a day.. can i?!

明天会更好

过了一个不怎么好的一天。

从睁开眼睛的那一瞬间，心情就不怎么好了。很可能与睡眠不足有关吧。因而觉得今天无论做什么事都不怎么顺。加上太累了，心情就较难以控制。一旦事情做不好，就觉得自己很糟糕。说真的，脑袋空空上课真的不可能把功课做好。

今天该完成的事还蛮多。有点觉得压力了。

我需要音乐。真的，音乐可以改变一个人的心情。

真的希望明天会是个美好的一天。

。。。

因为重视，所以在乎。

但往往因过于在乎，而感到失望。

for you

this post is supposed to be up last night.. but my body clock told me that i should move my butt away from the chair asap..

anyway, had a kinda bad and weird feeling yesterday.. i'm feeling better now as the thought isn't as bad as yesterday..

for you,

it isn't a sudden/random thought.. i have been observing this for quite a long time.. i realized that we are like two strangers who don't know each other sometimes.. did you realize that sometimes, we din't talk to each other for the whole day.. not even a word (except i call u when you're home/when it's time for dinner) i feel weird about this and i don't like it.. i wish we can be as close as buddy.. i wish to build a better & closer relationship with you as the fact is that our relationship is actually very close..

do you realize that things started to change since we all grew up?! it's no longer like last time when we had our family day - swimming session every saturday evening etc..

miss the time when we went grocery shopping together before chinese new year.. we together decided on what should we get/try this year and it always ended up with a lot of plastic bags home.. LOL.

miss the time when you brought us to the car park area nearby our house and took our photos just because the sunset and weather were nice..

miss the time when you liked to put your hand over our shoulder and "dragged" us around while shopping/walk walk.. even though it wasn't that comfortable to walk but you made us feel safe..

miss the time when we always fell asleep on your bed and you had to carry us to our bed.. to be honest, i ever pretended sleeping as i just wanted you to carry me to my bed.. LOL..

miss a lot a lot of the moment we all had last time..

how i wish i have a time machine to go back to that time..

well, things really changed a lot a lot since we all grew up..

you never join us for grocery shopping anymore since most of us have driving license..

you never really tease us anymore..

hardly see you laugh recently.. not even a smile sometimes.. (i know you're always that cool.. but can't you don't be so cool in front of us?!)

however, i'm glad that you still care about us so much.. you never fail to give us at least a call a day.. even though you're quite loso sometimes.. LOL.. but it has became our habit as something just not right without a call a day from you..

also, i really felt warm that you even thought of helping me to solve the conflict between me and my friend when it was actually the age which i was mature enough to solve whatever problem i faced.. although you didn't tell me directly but i received the message from a good resource.. :)

well, sincerely apolosige if i'm very rude to you sometimes.. you're still the best father in the world.. LOVE YOU! ^^

cheers,

your beloved daughter

Shoo

shoo shoo shoo.. please stay far far away from me.. u make me headache, u make me tired, u make me weak once you get close me..

please go away and never come back to me.. i don't like you at all..

~FLU~

Life during holidays

dear all,

what have you been doing lately?! how's your "wonderful" holidays for all the swinburnians?! hahaa.. well, i'm just quite anti social lately.. stayed at home for most of the time.. accompanied my TV, my computer, my bed and of course spent more time with parents & youngest sister.. don't ask me why my holidays sound boring.. i have no idea.. lol.. i realized that it's quite good to be anti social sometimes.. don't have to care about what's happening outside there.. don't have to bother so much.. life would be better & happier isn't it?! lol..

anyway, new semester gonna start in 2 weeks time.. i'm really for it.. hahaa.. new semester, new subjects, new people maybe?! but i'm totally not really for any assignment, task, test etc.. @.@

sidetrack: the weather is SO HOT during day time but rain heavily during night time.. crazy @.@