I was wrong

as long as it's the fact, you can't say No to it..

what i did was ignored it..

i have been ignoring the fact for year and years..

but.. today, I decided to know..

i used to think it's ok.. it isn't a big deal.. it gonna be alright.. and..

i thought i was prepared and could accept the "consequence" one day if it really happens..

but..

i think I was wrong..

tears dropped when I thought of the future..

i actually felt scared..

i just.. ... ... hope it really gonna be alright :) :) :)

..............................

FINALLY!!! the only test was over!!!
I'm not gong to care so much about the result as i have already expected that i would do really badly in the test.. I wasn't fully prepared and the questions were so tricky :(

anyhow, assignments are yet to be done.. it's time to start the unfinished work..

all the best everyone..

the murderer - marketing

marketing oh marketing..

i guess it's really not my piece of cake..

hardest time ever!!! :(

anyhow.. i really hope everything will be fine!

smile :)

我的周末

这两天真的过的很颓废。

什么都没做，只知道吃睡看电视。

终于把戏都看完了。

是时候收拾心情回到读书岗位上了。

看了看自己的纪录簿，开始觉得不安。

好多好多东西等着我去做，可我一点儿动力都没有。

唉~~~

又要开始与时间赛跑了。累啊。

Soul-Toons 8

recommended by a friend..

the guy in the video is really GOOD..

watch it :)

小学的作文题目

还记得小学一二年级的作文题目总离不开

“我的自述”，“我的家庭”，“我的爸爸”，“我的妈妈”。

还记得自己写了些什么吗？我可是一个字都不记得了。

如果要我再次拿起笔，

写篇”我的自述“的话，

我会写：：：

我是个时静时动的女生。

可以是那么的开朗，也可以是那么的冷酷。

我的外表看起来或许是那么的坚强。

其实，害怕的事情多的是。

脾气，私心，霸道，哪个女生没有。我也不例外。

还有，可以很肯定的告诉大家，我是个百分百随心所欲的人。

不管做什么事情，只要那”心“想做，就会去完成。

如果那”心“一点儿也没兴趣，千万别逼我，因为，黑面包公可能会出现。

这性格或许曾经让许多人感到不满，我也懂太过于随行所欲会带来许多不必要的麻烦。

但，这么多年了，还是改不了，也没什么打算改了，因为，这就是我。

“我的爸爸”呢，

我会写：：：

我有个非常嘴硬心软的爸爸。不需要他说，了解他的我们都知道。

常常爱装出那不在乎的样子，其实，心里不知多在乎。

啰嗦，大骂就是他用来关心我们的方式。

虽然常常因他的啰嗦感到不耐烦，但，我们个个都知道他的用意在哪里。

也虽然常常因被他念被他骂而感到非常生气，但，气消了就没事了。

当然的，父女间总少不了沟通。但，我爸就是那么的不同。

他总用那“严父”的样子面对我们。

不怎么笑，也不说太多的话。

可是呢，外表冷酷的他，却是个好爸爸。

只要我们有需要，他都会为我们打点好一些。

很明显的，

迟回家，最不安的就是他。

生病了，最紧张的就是他。

被欺负了，最在乎的还是他。

还有还有。。。就有那么的事情是他关心在乎的。

那“我的妈妈”

我会写：：：

我的妈妈是个进的了厨房，出得了厅堂的女士。

别看她矮小，在事业上，她可是我爸的得力助手。

在家里，便是个厨艺家务样样都行的好主妇。

她就是那么的原意为家人付出，任劳任怨。

虽然常说累，也常这里痛那里痛，但，她还是那么勤劳的为家人打点一切。

还有，那过去的过去一点也没把她打倒。因为，她就是那么的勇敢坚强。

当遇到事情时，不是向我们倾诉，就是往肚里吞。

也很少看她生气，只会念我们几句。

还有还有，她真的很爱重复说一样的事，就跟我爸一样的啰嗦。

这。。。就是我的妈妈。

“我的家庭”我就不写了。

因为有太多太多好写。

懒了。不想多写了。

就此停笔。

life lately

mood swing really fast lately..

from good to bad then suddenly back to good..

crazy i know.. but I just couldn't control it..

sorry to those whom I might have ignored or "cool-ed" to..

wasn't in the mood to play.. what i wanted was just to get home asap..

was so so so tired everyday.. probably because it's just the beginning of the semester.. yet to get into the situation.. excuse huh.. i know right..

it was really really a hard time for me to get up from the bed every morning.. sienz..

please.. spirit.. the study spirit.. please visit me asap..

Accounting theory needs me badly.. i need to be with it asap or else i gonna be death end of the semester.. NO!!! Please..

**SOON.. praying hard.. don't disappointed me please please please**

有话想说

只想说，人的忍耐是有限的。

不管脾气有多好，只要超出了那底限，人还是会生气的。

适可而止的玩笑当然是可以被接受的。

但，开玩笑归开玩笑。千万别人身攻击。

一句玩笑或许能让大家开心大笑，但，被笑的那个人是什么感受，你知道吗？

不回应，不反击，不代表认同。只是不想不欢而散，让大家尴尬。

对于那些刺耳的话，我选择以微笑或沉默带过。

如果有一天我真的站起来大骂或调头就走时，

不是因为我变得小气玩不起，而是你们的玩笑开过火了。

p/s: 以上文章不针对任何人。

美好的时光总是过得那么快

相聚的时间总是过得好快好快，总觉得时间怎么不够用呀。

回想起当年的我们，常一起上课，一起参加课外活动，一起补课，一起补习。

还好，没一起翘课。哈哈。

还记得当时的我们，每天都不忘了向对方打招呼说声嗨，还有，也不忘了向对方开个玩笑，疯狂一下。

中四中五那段时光对我来说真的有太多的回忆了。

喜怒哀乐统统有。

朋友间的磨擦谁没有过。但，能让那磨损表面再次光滑，又有几个人做的到？

对于很多人来说，磨损了就是磨损了。即时能让那磨损的表面再次光滑，只要仔细去看，那表面还是有些凹凸不平。

我很庆幸的是，我们是那么的不一样。

不知你们是怎么想，但，至少我是那么认为。

虽然是被磨损过，但，现在看起来，那表面真的就是那么得光滑。

那段过去让我看见了什么是“经得起考验的友情”

当然，最让人怀念的还是一起度过的那段欢乐时光。

就这样，五年的中学生涯在2007年尾画下了美好的句点。

为我们的友情干杯！

没办法出席聚会的朋友们别难过。

下一次的聚会在等着我们。

new semester

time flies..

everyone started to get back to the own study position..

well, this semester is going to be a challenging one for me.. toughest accounting subject ever and new team to work together for the second part of the major project..

all the best to you and me :)

**results come out next week.. i really need best luck.. it's an important point in determining my future.. please.. don't disappointed me please :'(**

"how are you?"

how? and how? and how?

how do you actually show people that you sincerely care about them..

and how can you let people tell you the truth of how good they really are..

"how are you?" is commonly used by people as way to greet other people..

but.. my "how are you" to YOU is really "h o w a r e y o u???"..

as in are you really doing good there? just like what i saw and knew?

everytime i asked you "how are you?", your "i'm fine" wasn't that convincing to make me really believe that you're really doing good..

maybe i have been thinking too much..

just hope that you're really doing good there..

great moment

great time spent with the high school friends..

felt great to meet them up..

so much to chat.. so much to share..

we were chatting about travelling, vacation..

there's a lot a lot a lot of places i really want to go..

penang, melaka, kk, singapore, melbourne and many more.. ... ...

were somehow planning to go travelling together next year..

hoping that it will happen..

but.. money please come in first..

haiz.. gotto start working next year..

mixed feeling right now..

can't wait to earn money but somehow afraid of the working life..

where should i go? when should i start? dilemma.. ... ...

失望。迷惑。

我只能说，失望。

以前的我总觉得“距离”不会是影响一段友情的因素。

不管分隔多远，不管常不常联络，

只要是真心的去结交朋友，你我心里总会有彼此。

但一切的一切让我觉得我们“曾经”是好朋友。

说了是曾经，所以，现在的我们感觉陌生了许多。

渐渐地，对”一辈子的好朋友“这六个字不再抱太大的希望。

也渐渐地，对”好朋友“这三个字感到有点迷惑。

知心朋友我懂，我也知道我有。

聊得来的朋友，说多不多，说少也不少。

感情还不错的朋友也有几个。

但，好朋友呢？什么是好朋友？

又有谁把我当成好朋友呢？

p/s: 请别随便对号入座。

1st post for september

this is a really dead blog i know..

same excuse like always - busy.. hahaa.. oppsss

well, life was quite happening lately..

was having the winter term final exam two weeks ago..

(praying hard that result will be good.. or at least a pass.. please please please)

followed by preparing friend's birthday pressie before i was away for the trip..

made her a simple yet complicated video with all the photos we took together..

or should i say photo slideshow..

it's simple as it's only photo, photo and more photos with a short video and background music..

it's complicated as i'm a IT noob i would say.. it took me quite sometimes to find and choose pictures, to compile everything, to convert the file and upload.. seriously.. aduhduh..

the kinda last minute work was somehow driving me crazy..

oh well, video was too long and file was too big.. extra work done to cut it short and convert the file.. progress of uploading the video was another problem.. internet line sucks.. took quite sometimes to get the video uploaded.. phew.. at least managed to give her the pressie on time.. happy :)

trip started after that..

was so excited about it as the plan was to visit sibu + miri + brunei..

unfortunately, it didn't happen as how it should be..

so disappointed with maswing..

it was delayed at first.. then, flight cancelled after almost 3 hours of wait..

eyh heylow.. how can you just cancelled the flight like that?!?!?! ishhh..

well, flight cancelled, excitement gone, so, bye bye miri and brunei :(

thus, plan changed.. stayed at sibu for a week..

was spending the time with cousins and the family..

it was all about food hunting and exploring the place..

food was great.. fried squid and the crispy pancake.. i miss it :D

was planning to have nice crab for dinner the night before i came home..

unfortunately, didn't have the luck to try it.. it was sold out =.=!!!

never mind, waiting for my mum to cook for me one day.. i still want crab!!! arghhh.. LOL

the one week sibu trip ended with a tired body..

uncle drove the family and I home.. 5 hours of ride was a long journey for me..

not used to sit in the car for such a long time.. but at least i have experienced it :)

next trip came up..

maternal side 2 days 1 night family trip to damai puri..

not everyone was there but it was still a fun and relaxing trip..

and now.. i'm sitting here blogging while waiting for the time to pass..

friend's birthday dinner tonight.. which means high school friends reunion time :)

anyway, gotto end the post right now..

have a great day everyone :)

til then..

my feeling at the moment

i'm STRESS now!!!
my progress is super duper slow..

slow.. slow.. slow..

huhuhuu :'(

life

alalalalalaaa :D

so so so into watching youtube lately.. was searching for nice songs to listen and funny videos to watch.. actually, i'm still searching for it.. any recommendation? you may drop a comment under this post if you have any nice song or funny video to share with me.. thanks in advance.. hehee..

back to the story of my life..

well well well.. time passed really fast.. just a blink of eye, 6 weeks of study almost come to the end..

1 more week to go to determine if i have learnt something or nothing in this short semester.. lol..

feeling kinda worried now but the lazy body of mine just doesn't want to move..

feeling so tired to squeeze the brain juice thinking of how to write the report and presentation.. as well as the revision..

energetic physically not mentally at all.. why o why?!?!?!

anyway, motivation o motivation.. could you please visit me asap?!?! i don't wanna get panic/stress for doing last minutes work.. thanks a lot a lot a lot..

look.. i found something quite true..

{... [I've noticed that whenever a girl or boy kills themself, mounds of people are suddenly saying, "it's a shame, they were so beautiful."] ... Here's an idea. Tell them that while they're still alive. Then maybe they'll stick around to hear it ... }

another one,,,

{... People are funny. They spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't need, to impress people they don't like ...}

as well as this,,,

{... The first step to recovery is admitting that you have a problem. Sounds easy? It's not. Admitting you have a problem shows your weakness, shows that you are vulnerable. So, how to recover? ...}

nah.. picture of the day.. SMILE as wide/big as you can :) :) :)

"Burns" Official Music Video - Jason Chen (Original)

Finally, he own a/the song..

ermmm.. sorry to say that.. it isn't that WoW for me.. so, not really into this song..

but good try :) waiting for his new song.. hehee

i had a great day :)

it has been really a while since the last time i laughed out so hard and loud.. LOL

was spending the whole day with the couz, couz's couz and sis..

i have no idea what made me laughed out so hard and loud.. seriously..

i just couldn't control and laugh everytime the couz opened her mouth.. oh my..

and of course the far relative - couz's couz.. he is a funny guy who always got bullied by us.. so pity.. LOL

well, have been eating the whole day, talking the whole day and laughing the whole day..

and of course sharing.. it was just so random that we share our experience and thought to each other.. and realised that, our thinking is kinda alike.. lol..

i had a great day today.. thank you :D :D :D

couldn't imagine how am i going to spend 1 week plus with her during my coming hols.. bet i gonna laugh until crazy man..

anyway, so so so tired now.. energy have been used up.. it's time for bed.. see yea.. nite nite :)

。。。 有谁可以告诉我为什么？

你的一句话，他的一句话，真的是彻彻底底让我心情糟到一个不行。哎~

多希望做人可以做得潇洒点。

不需在乎别人怎么看，怎么想。

一切按照自己的心情，想法去做。

累了。真的是累了。

难道不管做什么事都得把别人放第一？自己放第二？

难道就不能把自己放第一？别人放第二？

难道这就是自私的意思吗？

难道不管做什么事都得顾虑到每个人的感受，想法？

难道就得为了满足别人而活吗？

难道。。难道。。

朋友

少联络不代表忘记了。

少联络不代表不在乎了。

少联络不代表喜新厌旧了。

而是因为真的忙了。

再联络不代表有心利用。

而是因为忽然想念。

喜怒哀乐，酸甜苦辣都一起度过了。

哪怕是那短暂的失联。

朋友，不是一天两天的事。

而是一辈子的事。

要经得起考验的友情才叫做 “一辈子的友情”

speechless

L.I.A.R

who doesn't hate liar but why would people still behave like such?

human nature again? hmmm..

担心

突然感到压力。怎么办？

六个星期。行吗？

开始担心了。

怎么办？怎么办？

it's back, it's over :)

"Transformers" is BACK!!!

was waiting for the moment and FINALLY!!!

well, nice.. go watch!!! go watch!!!

but i think the story line for the current one isn't as WOW as the previous one.. it didn't surprise me much this time..

overall, i would rate it a 9 out of 10 :D

my eyes blinked when i saw all those awesome cool cars.. seriously O.O

i felt touched when i saw all those heroic attitude.. no matter they are human or not.. they are MEN.. LOL

and the IT & Design skills the experts have.. thumb up..

but hey.. where's Megan Fox???

anyway, none of the transformers movies has disappointed me so far..

so i'm looking forward to watch the next one if there's one in the future..

shoo.. boring life!!!

can't can't can't can't can't..

i really can't stand doing nothing and just lazing at home..

aimless life is really killing me!!! !!! !!!

bad bad bad.. this is really bad :(:(:(

have been on and off, on and off, on and off my laptop the whole day..

wait, to be exact, i have been doing this for the past few days..

what a boring life.. i know.. haizzz..

such boring life somehow made me emo..

seriously.. have been thinking quite a lot these few days..

especially those not-so-good memories just like to pop out when i have nothing better to think about..

well, people.. it's definitely not a good way to spend your time as the more you think, the more you feel bad and down..

after the thought, you would definitely like "aiksss.. i shouldn't have done that" "i shouldn't have said that" or "why didn't i do it" "why didn't i go" bla bla bla..

hundred and thousand of regrets pop out in your mind..

haiz.. that's what happened to me..

seriously.. i always regretted saying something or doing something..

quite often that my words came out at the wrong place, wrong time and only realized my mistakes later on..

well, i think this is the outcome of being a WEAK straightforward person.. sounds very funny huh but it's true..

i could be as straightforward as the others but i'm not as cool as them in the sense that they feel nothing being gossiped by the others..

no way.. i couldn't accept being the gossip's topic..

so, please.. please come to me.. any disagreement or what, just come and talk to me.. it's definitely a better way to solve the problem and yea.. i would be happy to know the truth :)

anyway, "regret" is the worst habit i have and i really wish i could get rid of it..

i kept telling myself to control and hold back a little so that my words wouldn't hurt anyone..

but but but.. i think i should give myself a fail on this.. haizzz..

not that i heard any gossip or what but my feeling, my thought..

or maybe i have been thinking too much.. LOL..

see.. this is the outcome of being too bored..

kept thinking nonsense.. haizzz.. LOL..

anyhow, it's gonna be another boring day tomorrow..

yea.. i'm not looking forward at all =.=

everyday routine ::: on and off laptop, on and off tv, foods and sleep..

eyh but one good thing about this boring holidays, i got the chance to come back to the hometown and parents are around.. which means i don't have to worry about food supplies..

this whole week of super convenient food supplies made me forgot about what's hunger.. LOL..

enough for all those craps..

see yea :):):)

**friday soon :(:(:( i don't wanna face the reality laa.. i don't dare.. really don't dare :(:(:( i don't know why i feel so worried this time.. bad feeling kept popping out.. oh please.. don't!!! don't disappointed me.. pleaseeeeeeeee**

Ryan Higa - Romantic Valentines Day Story

Haven't been watching his funny videos for quite a while..

This made my day :D

..more to watch..

"Hold My Hand" (J Rice / Kurt Schneider Cover)

this song just kept playing in my mind the whole day :):):)

感叹

爱情， 对你来说是什么？
爱情， 到底该在什么时候放手， 在什么时候坚持？

看了个部落格。
女的长得温柔可爱。
男的长得还不错，但，品格有问题。
对她时冷时热， 呼来唤去。
她，却一句怨言也没有。对他还是那么好。
都头来，他却不承认这段感情。

这当然对她是种伤害。
伤心过了，哭过了，醒了吗？
对于我们这些外人来说，这应该是个不会开花结果的爱情。所以，放手吧。
但，她看起来还很坚持。希望有一天能和他再在一起。

不知该不该说她傻。还是，她太专情。
痛也受过了，泪也流过了。她，却不放弃。
希望她的坚持不会再次让她受伤。
幸福 :)

human nature

the temporarily replacement??? maybe..

..selfishness..

well, humans are somehow quite selfish..

(hey, if you're human, please don't deny ok)

when people need you, a stranger would become someone close to you..

but, when they don't, you are nothing in their eyes..

nah.. look into it.. it's gonna be nothing because it's human nature :)

..praise..

the meaning behind this word is quite uncertain..

people could praise you in a honest way..

people could also praise you in a sarcastic way..

people could also praise you, just want to make you think that you're good but maybe you aren't.. for what???

for.. either encouragement.. to build up your confident..

or being.. so-called "dog leg" in mandarin.. just want to give you face, make you feel good.. in return, you might benefit them in future.. who knows :)

nah.. another human nature..

maybe i think too much :)

or maybe different people have different point of view..

what I see, may not be what you see.. so yeah :)

anyway, it's almost the end of my holidays..

results come out soon.. school reopen soon.. haizzz..

i'm seriously worried about my results.. haizzz..

motivation?!?!?!

one more paper on next tuesday!

but my progress is damn slow.. no motivation..

where my motivation go?!?!?! where where where?!?!?!

well, i feel worried of course..

arghhh!!! sienzzz =.="""

the lecture is crazy! lecture slides is damn lots!!!...

stock clearing

just very random that the little family of mine was having "stock clearing" session..

clear off those unused bags and belts..

well, ladies are really blind when it comes to SHOPPING!!!

bought tons of stuff but ended up being kind to donate it to people..

i admit that i do have such bad habit sometimes.. hahaa..

then, when it comes to stock clearing, you would like "why was i so blind and stupid bought such thing home".. that's very normal to me.. hahaa..

我。。。累了

有点累了。心也不在了。

多希望可以就这样不理，不睬。

可是，"责任" 这两个字让我无法不去理会。

问题多多。期限又快到了。更累。

啊。。。

**外表坚强，不代表内心坚强。虽然，已习惯了有问题自己解决。但，偶尔撑不下去的时候，还真希望有个肩膀靠一靠**

Back!

Hey hey hey..

I'm back :D

life was really packed with assignments and tests.. and now.. exam period..

finally have a little time to breathe..

two assignment based subjects DONE..

one exam down.. **praying hard that it will turn out to be alright**

one more to go.. GOGOGO!!! **but i have been procrastinated my revision.. deng**

ohyea.. love this tumblr very much..

mochacafe.info

check it out..

thanks to tlynn :):):)

悲哀的星期五

星期五，一个美好的早晨。

。。。被堆得像山高的功课给毁了。

唉。。。真的是唉。。。

时间真的是不够用。。

下星期一前得把三项功课做完。

后星期得把两项功课交上。

大后星期得把一项功课完成。

这一项又一项的功课需要好长好多的准备时间呀。

不够不够。时间真的是不够。

惨呀！这整个月别想有好日子过！唉。。。

**分享是种快乐。但，分享别人的不是却一点也不快乐。真的很想知道。。怎么了。。。为何会这样**

took a break, away from all the stress

what a nice Saturday Morning..

not so bad weather.. not so bad mood..

it's a starting of something new..

well, STUDY! i seriously need to start my revision today.. i have already run out of time..

3 tests next week.. gosh.. kill me first.. i'm so not ready for it.. still in holidays mood..

seriously.. 1 week of mid-sem break isn't enough..

anyway, enough for that :)

just came back from my so-called "honeymoon" trip two days ago.. hahaa

it was a new experience for me.. nice trip with great companion..

it was totally a relaxing one..

we explored the places on our own, tried our luck to get in the correct LRT, KTM and Monorail..
then, walked and walked and walked..

public transport and our feet were our best friends..

well, we managed to conquer..

1st day,

afternoon - sungei wang and bb plaza
night - pavillion and night market at bukit bintang area

2nd day,

whole day - mid valley

night - the garden mall,

(go and back from mid valley and the garden mall for a few times just to get a blazer.. duh.. lol)

3rd day,

whole day - sunway pyramid

(got myself a temporary tattoo.. hehee but Kuching has the cheaper one)

night - connaught night market at subang jaya (heard this is the longest night market in malaysia)

the night market only opens on Wednesday night..

no deny that it is REALLY LONG.. we took almost two hours to walk around the whole market.. that includes stop at a few stalls to see things..

some stalls are repeated.. as in the things they sell.. but the things are really cheap with not so bad quality..

well, wanted to go sunway lagoon but it rained so cancelled it..

also, planned to watch movie at pavillion but was running out of time so cancelled it as well..

gotto experience those next time :)

last day,

morning - time square

afternoon - LCCT (it's time to be home :)

move on to the best part of the trip.. FOOD HUNTING!!!

1st day,

lunch - penang char kueh tiaw at bukit bintang area (can't remember the shop name)
tea break - ice cream at toilet bowl (lol.. imagine yourself sitting on the toilet bowl, having ice cream which looks like shit.. lol)

dinner - "ting zai chou" at lot 10 (what boat porridge bla bla bla.. whatever you call it)

2nd day,
breakfast - american breakfast at hotel bintang warisan
lunch - domino's pizza and boost's all berry bang (smoothies drink)

tea break - a few sip of baskin robin's ice cream

dinner - jusco's sushi set (satisfied)

ordered tako also but forgot to take the bill and a lot of people were queuing up.. so didn't manage to get one.. sad :(

3rd day,

breakfast - american breakfast again at hotel bintang warisan again

lunch - deluxe chicken bla bla bla set at ajisen ramen (i prefer their ramen than rice set meal)

tea break - "tong soi" at snow flakes (finally had chinese style dessert.. it's nice)

dinner - taiwan sausage, tako and sugar cane drink at conaught night market (jusco's tako is much nicer and i still want it)

last day,

breakfast - nasi lemak at hotel bintang warisan

lunch - Wendy's beef burger set (not bad.. the bun is nice)
tea break - kitkat and nescafe in the airplane (gosh.. nescafe didn't work on me.. i fell asleep in the plane)

that's the end of my food hunting part as well as the trip..

there's still a lot a lot a lot of foods i haven't try..

next time then..

this is just the starting..

i still wanna visit a lot a lot a lot of places badly..

KK, Penang, Langkawi, Melaka, Singapore and etc :)

ohyeah.. thanks Nacy for being a great companion throughout the trip..

you gave me a wonderful "honeymood" trip to KL.. hahahaa..

also, special thanks to Angelyn and Cindy for being our tour guide..

see you guys in Kuching soon :)

oh gosh

oh gosh! this blog is much much much more easier to write compared to those graded blog entries..

i seriously never know blogging can be so hard until my first IBP Blog Entry..

gosh.. i was really having hard time completing the blog entry.. same goes to the current one..

cracking my head, thinking of ideas on how to make it an interesting one at the same time related to the criteria..

having serious "traffic jam" here..
got the idea but don't know how to put in sentences..

kinda headache now.. real headache..

guess my body is lacked of H2O @,@

will sleep soon..

nitey :)

arghhh!!! :'(

arghhh!!!

i need another brain..

i need another pair of hands..

i need more space to breathe..

fresh air.. fresh air.. fresh air.. i need fresh air right now..

too many things yet too little time..

everything in ONE WEEK!!! ONE WEEK!!!

meeting.. meeting and meeting..

discussion.. discussion and discussion..

mock tests.. mock tests and mock tests..

tbl.. tbl and tbl..

blog entry.. blog entry and blog entry..

one word in my mind now.. SHIAT!!!

arghhh!!! :'(

搞不懂，想不透。

自打嘴巴。真的是自打嘴巴。

说了不可能有机会了，却突然改变想法，说未来或许不是不可能。

或许，当时只是气话。

又或许，现在的自己看开了很多事。觉得不该活在过去的哀怒。

面对你那些无聊的问题，有时真的让我哑口无言。

你怎么会有那种奇怪，不合逻辑的想法？莫名其妙。

那你对你的每个她到底是不是真心的？真的很奇怪。搞不懂那个点在哪里。

真是的。

珍惜你眼前的那个她吧。

不要再说那些无聊的话了。

到目前为止大家还是朋友。朋友 :)

question marks here and there

wow.. whole day in the library.. amazing..

didn't do that for quite a long time dy..

was having meeting with the PR team..

wow.. feel so so so worry when i think of the deficit figures @.@

are we seriously able to get so much sponsorship???

i really wish we can but i doubt we can..

anyone is kind enough to donate money to us???

we seriously need money badly.. please please please..

anyway, was thinking about it again.. should i or shouldn't i???

really wonder how will it be if i decided to do so???

or how will it be if i don't??? dilemma.. dilemma..

but i worry.. worry that.. it wouldn't be how i want it to be..

arghhh.. whatever.. not going to think about it at the moment..

gotto switch my study mood on.. haven't get my work done..

what a slacker am i :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

statement of the day

shoo the worries away and be happy :)

what a weather

i need some ice right now..

so so so hot..

you might think i'm crazy as it just rained..

well, i don't know.. i just feel like there isn't air circulation..

hotta hotta hotta..

anyway, this is how my nails look like right now..

not so nice but different try..

kinda like the pink one but i can't really apply it on all the nails..

i tried before.. it didn't seem to be that nice as my skin tone is more to yellowish dark..

i kinda like the hair.. teehee :)

**pimples oh pimples..

can you please get far away from me..

you're just so annoying**

this explains that

**tik-tok tik-tok**

it's 12.20am right now and i'm still awake..

yea.. i'm still awake.. just don't feel like going to bed so early..

well, was reading every single post i have in this blog..

really a lot of memories.. a lot a lot..

the fun one, the happy one, the sad one, the down one.. all kind of memories..

just realised that i have been blogging for 3 years plus dy.. waow..

but my posts are getting less and less every year..

i used to blog a lot in 2008.. that was the most happening year throughout my uni life when everyone was so close to each other..

we were so busy with all the outings.. not studies.. not clubs..

it was when we were all newbies there..

were busy exploring new eating places, random car ride, prom night, celebration and many more..

do you remember???

because i do.. i remember all those wonderful moment we had and i miss it..

how i wish everyone can be as close as last time.. i really wish..

the gang is just getting smaller and smaller every semester and i don't know why..

do you know???

everyone just seems so busy with their own stuff..

the studies, the clubs, the relationships, the works.. .. .. the new gang :(

am i going to be alone during my final semester??? well, i think the possibility is there..

aiksss.. this semester is a little boring.. everyone is just so packed with studies and own stuff..

even i myself don't feel like going out.. don't even have the mood to initiate outing with friends..

just feel so tired everyday.. can't wait to go home to rest and sleep after classes..

boring life right yet i feel so lazy to make it an exciting one.. arghhh..

gym session used to be my loved one.. but it's no longer like that..

i have been so kind to "donate" money to LU since two months back..

just suddenly felt pressure to go gym after internship everyday as i needed to force myself to go and i didn't enjoy it anymore since then.. just so tired after working for 8 hours per day..

what i was looking forward to the end of the day was to get home asap..

can't imagine how's my life gonna be when i step into the "real world"..

am i going to be so unsocialized??? am i going to have such dead life style???

OH NO.. please NO..

it's so so so not what i want..

aiksss.. another wordy post.. i realised i have a lot of wordy posts lately..

no pictures, no videos or what..

and posts are all so emo, sad and down..

so sien to read right.. i feel so sien about it too..

gotto find something more interesting to post soon..

stay tune :)

gotto go to the bed now..

it's almost 1am dy..

gotto wake up early and start my FPI presentation..

haven't even started anything..

wasted the whole day did nothing..

nite nite.. see yea :)

motivation i need you

time flies..

what have i done today???

NONE..

woke up late and still laze around at home..

youtube, facebook, msn, blog..

damn it.. I NEED MOTIVATION BADLY!!!

my brain tells me it's time to get my ass off the couch and start to do my work..

but my body is just too stubborn to do so..

i seriously need motivation to start the preparation for my FPI presentation..

friends

it's good to be honest to each other..

that's how friends should be like..

and i'm glad that you're honest to me :)

hello friday hello everyone

**yawning**

good afternoon everyone.. how's your day???

the weather is so nice.. mr. sun is smiling to us :)

well, weekend is coming up.. it's tomorrow to be exact..

hmm.. i just don't feel excited about it anymore.. no idea why..

suddenly feel like running away from this city for a while..

i miss my hometown.. I seriously do.. seriously miss it..

envy my sister is there enjoying the sleeptilassgetburnt, watchseriestilthereisdayandnite and freewarmnicelunchanddinner moment..

it's just somehow a busy noisy yet simple place..

i don have to worry about anything every time i go back..

hmm.. miss hanging out with the HS friends..

every time I go back, they are always not there.. duhhh :(

seriously no fate..

anyway, meeting again later.. gotto get myself ready.. see yea :)

yeah! mood is back

SLACKER.. SLACKER.. SLACKER..

YES! THAT'S ME RIGHT NOW..

anyway, i guess this is the end of my emo period..

i'm just simply feel good right now..

... weirdo huh ... whatever :)

listening to JC's latest album..

it's not new but yea that's the latest..

i'm not JC's fan actually but i'm just simply like his songs.. not all but most of them..

although i kinda speechless with those ithinktheyarepointlessandmeanigless songs of his but i think his love songs are simply meaningful and true.. don't you think so???

the lyrics writer (whatever it called) just somehow knows how i feel and think sometimes..

that's coincident i know but it's so match..

try to listen to the lyrics.. you might realize what i realized..

well, this is just a simple sharing moment, not trying to promote him..

i'm still very loyal to my loved one ok.. hahahaa

off to bed now.. nite nite :)

***looking forward to have a wonderful Friday tomorrow

好久没。。。

好久没开怀大笑了。

想念那笑到忘我的时候。

这几天过好累好累，心情低落到一个不行。

或许，“姨妈”拜访的关系吧。

真是的。

唉~突然好像放长假哦。

旅行。旅行。旅行。

life recently

life is getting busier.. b.. b.. b.. b.. busy busy busy busy busyyyyy..

feel so dead right now..

there's works waiting for me to get them done.. BUT.. no motivation at all..

ohyea, guess what.. i'm a Final Year Student dy..

it's unbelievable right..

i'm not sure if the system changed or it's memang like that..

well, i group with random people more this time and we gonna work together throughout this whole semester..

it's just the starting so, i can't tell if we can create a perfect work but i HOPE we really can work on peace and score well :)

**looking at my planner**

oh my planner my planner.. why is it so packed???

assessments to be done every week @.@

and club activities.. HULALAA..

gotto split myself into two soon..

anyway, life goes on.. so, SMILE :)

it's gonna be alright..

***4 April***

我也想知道

不知何时开始，距离有点远了。

没有特别的原因，理由。

就是。。。 感觉。

你发现了吗？

问题何在呀？

*做了个决定。天大的决定。不后悔？我真的不知道*

new semester, new life

internship has finally came to the end..

it was kind of different compared to last year..

1stly, a different group of new interns i mixed with..

2ndly, slightly different group of seniors i worked with..

3rdly, new skills and knowledge i gained..

Lastly, the "politic & gossip" i heard..

it was great that i learnt more this time..

it was great to know another bunch of great people especially "kak mary" :D

it was great to meet people that i knew there..

but it kinda scared me with the "politic" there..

i was looking forward for the new semester to start..

but.. i'm having mix feeling right now..

but but but i definitely prefer studying than working right now..

gotto treasure my final uni life :)

new semester starts tomorrow..

bet i wouldn't see a lot of familiar faces..

so many people that i know have already in Melbourne now..

sad me.. still stuck in Kuching.. how i wish i can be one of them..

friends in Kuching are getting less and less..

i agree that, only when people leave you then you know how much they mean to you and you gonna miss them like hell..

:(

你知道吗？

离开中学那单纯的学习生涯已3年多了。这3年来真的改变了我很多很多。改变了我的想法，改变了我的行为， 让我成熟了许多。我看清了也看开了很多事。不再执着得到答案。不想不理也不要知道了。该知道的“为什么”会自然而然让我知道。不该知道的“为什么”，不管我多执着想知道，始终都不会让我知道。

人心难测。每天对你嬉皮笑脸的人，是真心对你好的人吗？每天陪你打打闹闹的人，是真的能让你开心的人吗？每天说爱你的人，是真的会陪你一辈子的人吗？每天与你谈心的人，是真的愿意聆听的吗？思想单纯的你和我自然而然就会觉得这就是对我们好的人。如果从现实的角度来看，真的还是这样吗？这只不过是种猜测。或许。。或许。。

不知何时开始，自己的忍耐力开始动摇了。现在的自己，心情好时，可以很清楚的告诉自己那些不好听的话只不过是种玩笑。但，心情不好时，一切的哀怒都一一写在脸上。渐渐发现，容易把哀怒写在脸上的人往往都被觉得很软弱。所以，告诉自己，要从软弱中学习坚强。不管心情有多不好都不可以写在脸上。一切的经历也让我渐渐变得勇敢，独立。讨厌被别人质疑自己的能力，更讨厌被别人觉得自己是个笨蛋。聪明人处处有，而笨蛋根本不存在。“笨蛋" 这两个字只不过是那些骄傲自大的人用来形容那些比他们较差的人。不喜欢别人问我 “你能吗？你会吗？你敢吗？”只有我有权告诉你 因为只有我自己知道我到底能不能，会不会，敢不敢。我相信其实很多事是决定于要或不要。你信吗？慢慢观察身边的人事物，你慢慢就会知道了。

昨晚，听了个很有意义的故事。一群青蛙决定来个比赛看谁能跳上埃菲尔铁塔的顶端。比赛持续了很久很久。大家也试了好多好多次。不管怎么跳，最终都掉下来。在旁观看的青蛙们不停地叫它们放弃因为这是不可能的。好多青蛙最终放弃了且告示那些正在努力往上跳的青蛙们说放弃吧。试了那么多次都没成功。放弃吧。这是不可能的。渐渐的，一只两只三只青蛙都放弃了。只有一只没放弃。它不停的努力往上跳。最终，它真的成功了。大家都不敢相信。问它成功的秘诀是什么。后来发现，没有什么秘诀。只因为那只青蛙是“聋”的。往往不是我们不能，而是被别人的悲观字眼影响了我们的能力。所以，无时无刻都要乐观。那些悲观的话，就让它从左耳进右耳出就好。

分享够多的了。

在适当的时候应该睁大眼睛看事情。

不过，别太过分因为这可能会让你变得疑心病重，小心眼。日子会很难过。。。

开心过日子最重要。

i'm sorry

i have finally made the decision..

resignation email has been sent..

it took me ages to make the decision..

i wish to stay back with you all.. but.. .. .. i can't :(

as i really worry about my studies..

i know it's a selfish decision.. i'm sincerely sorry..

it's always very fun to have u guys around especially when we organize events together.. i know i 'll definitely miss a lot of fun since i made the decision.. but hey.. it's not like i will leave the school.. we still got chance to hang out together anytime we're free :)

anyway, i'm truly sorry.. hope you guys understand :)

... ... ...

lost control!!!

arghhh.. couldn't really control my temper lately..

hoo.. haa.. hoo.. need to get rid of this..

... ...

rojak.. really like rojak..

weekend oh weekend..

come faster.. come..

i need you badly..

need to change

my hair oh my hair..
it's damn messy.. ishhh.. ZZZZZzzzzZZZzzZ
how how how??? wanna change a new hairstyle..
but.. no idea at all.. how how how???
cut again? but i wanna leave it long.. but it's so messy right now..
dye? what colour?
or how?

anyway, internship starts tomorrow..
i'm totally not ready for that.. aiksss..
and it's time to burn up all the FATs i gained the last whole month..
arghhh!!! hopefully will succeed..
was very frustrated in searching for CNY's clothes..