for you

this post is supposed to be up last night.. but my body clock told me that i should move my butt away from the chair asap..

anyway, had a kinda bad and weird feeling yesterday.. i'm feeling better now as the thought isn't as bad as yesterday..

for you,

it isn't a sudden/random thought.. i have been observing this for quite a long time.. i realized that we are like two strangers who don't know each other sometimes.. did you realize that sometimes, we din't talk to each other for the whole day.. not even a word (except i call u when you're home/when it's time for dinner) i feel weird about this and i don't like it.. i wish we can be as close as buddy.. i wish to build a better & closer relationship with you as the fact is that our relationship is actually very close..

do you realize that things started to change since we all grew up?! it's no longer like last time when we had our family day - swimming session every saturday evening etc..

miss the time when we went grocery shopping together before chinese new year.. we together decided on what should we get/try this year and it always ended up with a lot of plastic bags home.. LOL.

miss the time when you brought us to the car park area nearby our house and took our photos just because the sunset and weather were nice..

miss the time when you liked to put your hand over our shoulder and "dragged" us around while shopping/walk walk.. even though it wasn't that comfortable to walk but you made us feel safe..

miss the time when we always fell asleep on your bed and you had to carry us to our bed.. to be honest, i ever pretended sleeping as i just wanted you to carry me to my bed.. LOL..

miss a lot a lot of the moment we all had last time..

how i wish i have a time machine to go back to that time..

well, things really changed a lot a lot since we all grew up..

you never join us for grocery shopping anymore since most of us have driving license..

you never really tease us anymore..

hardly see you laugh recently.. not even a smile sometimes.. (i know you're always that cool.. but can't you don't be so cool in front of us?!)

however, i'm glad that you still care about us so much.. you never fail to give us at least a call a day.. even though you're quite loso sometimes.. LOL.. but it has became our habit as something just not right without a call a day from you..

also, i really felt warm that you even thought of helping me to solve the conflict between me and my friend when it was actually the age which i was mature enough to solve whatever problem i faced.. although you didn't tell me directly but i received the message from a good resource.. :)

well, sincerely apolosige if i'm very rude to you sometimes.. you're still the best father in the world.. LOVE YOU! ^^

cheers,

your beloved daughter