shoo.. boring life!!!

can't can't can't can't can't..

i really can't stand doing nothing and just lazing at home..

aimless life is really killing me!!! !!! !!!

bad bad bad.. this is really bad :(:(:(

have been on and off, on and off, on and off my laptop the whole day..

wait, to be exact, i have been doing this for the past few days..

what a boring life.. i know.. haizzz..

such boring life somehow made me emo..

seriously.. have been thinking quite a lot these few days..

especially those not-so-good memories just like to pop out when i have nothing better to think about..

well, people.. it's definitely not a good way to spend your time as the more you think, the more you feel bad and down..

after the thought, you would definitely like "aiksss.. i shouldn't have done that" "i shouldn't have said that" or "why didn't i do it" "why didn't i go" bla bla bla..

hundred and thousand of regrets pop out in your mind..

haiz.. that's what happened to me..

seriously.. i always regretted saying something or doing something..

quite often that my words came out at the wrong place, wrong time and only realized my mistakes later on..

well, i think this is the outcome of being a WEAK straightforward person.. sounds very funny huh but it's true..

i could be as straightforward as the others but i'm not as cool as them in the sense that they feel nothing being gossiped by the others..

no way.. i couldn't accept being the gossip's topic..

so, please.. please come to me.. any disagreement or what, just come and talk to me.. it's definitely a better way to solve the problem and yea.. i would be happy to know the truth :)

anyway, "regret" is the worst habit i have and i really wish i could get rid of it..

i kept telling myself to control and hold back a little so that my words wouldn't hurt anyone..

but but but.. i think i should give myself a fail on this.. haizzz..

not that i heard any gossip or what but my feeling, my thought..

or maybe i have been thinking too much.. LOL..

see.. this is the outcome of being too bored..

kept thinking nonsense.. haizzz.. LOL..

anyhow, it's gonna be another boring day tomorrow..

yea.. i'm not looking forward at all =.=

everyday routine ::: on and off laptop, on and off tv, foods and sleep..

eyh but one good thing about this boring holidays, i got the chance to come back to the hometown and parents are around.. which means i don't have to worry about food supplies..

this whole week of super convenient food supplies made me forgot about what's hunger.. LOL..

enough for all those craps..

see yea :):):)

**friday soon :(:(:( i don't wanna face the reality laa.. i don't dare.. really don't dare :(:(:( i don't know why i feel so worried this time.. bad feeling kept popping out.. oh please.. don't!!! don't disappointed me.. pleaseeeeeeeee**

Ryan Higa - Romantic Valentines Day Story

Haven't been watching his funny videos for quite a while..

This made my day :D

..more to watch..

"Hold My Hand" (J Rice / Kurt Schneider Cover)

this song just kept playing in my mind the whole day :):):)

感叹

爱情， 对你来说是什么？
爱情， 到底该在什么时候放手， 在什么时候坚持？

看了个部落格。
女的长得温柔可爱。
男的长得还不错，但，品格有问题。
对她时冷时热， 呼来唤去。
她，却一句怨言也没有。对他还是那么好。
都头来，他却不承认这段感情。

这当然对她是种伤害。
伤心过了，哭过了，醒了吗？
对于我们这些外人来说，这应该是个不会开花结果的爱情。所以，放手吧。
但，她看起来还很坚持。希望有一天能和他再在一起。

不知该不该说她傻。还是，她太专情。
痛也受过了，泪也流过了。她，却不放弃。
希望她的坚持不会再次让她受伤。
幸福 :)

human nature

the temporarily replacement??? maybe..

..selfishness..

well, humans are somehow quite selfish..

(hey, if you're human, please don't deny ok)

when people need you, a stranger would become someone close to you..

but, when they don't, you are nothing in their eyes..

nah.. look into it.. it's gonna be nothing because it's human nature :)

..praise..

the meaning behind this word is quite uncertain..

people could praise you in a honest way..

people could also praise you in a sarcastic way..

people could also praise you, just want to make you think that you're good but maybe you aren't.. for what???

for.. either encouragement.. to build up your confident..

or being.. so-called "dog leg" in mandarin.. just want to give you face, make you feel good.. in return, you might benefit them in future.. who knows :)

nah.. another human nature..

maybe i think too much :)

or maybe different people have different point of view..

what I see, may not be what you see.. so yeah :)

anyway, it's almost the end of my holidays..

results come out soon.. school reopen soon.. haizzz..

i'm seriously worried about my results.. haizzz..

motivation?!?!?!

one more paper on next tuesday!

but my progress is damn slow.. no motivation..

where my motivation go?!?!?! where where where?!?!?!

well, i feel worried of course..

arghhh!!! sienzzz =.="""

the lecture is crazy! lecture slides is damn lots!!!...

stock clearing

just very random that the little family of mine was having "stock clearing" session..

clear off those unused bags and belts..

well, ladies are really blind when it comes to SHOPPING!!!

bought tons of stuff but ended up being kind to donate it to people..

i admit that i do have such bad habit sometimes.. hahaa..

then, when it comes to stock clearing, you would like "why was i so blind and stupid bought such thing home".. that's very normal to me.. hahaa..